Hello everyone, I'm back. It's been a couple months since I first introduced myself, but I came looking for advice and/or opinions. I recently broke up with someone I have been with for almost a year. My ex wanted to move our relationship to the next level physically but I didn't feel ready to do so. I felt guilty about it because after this long, I should feel comfortable with it. We are both in our early/mid 20's. I always felt self conscious when I went places with him, especially when I knew someone that was there. I finally made the decision to end it because of those two reasons, but now, after not being able to stop crying for a couple hours and losing some sleep, I'm starting to question whether or not I made the right decision. The problem is that I have some anxiety/depression/panic issues. Being embarrassed to be seen in public with him could very well be my social anxiety getting the best of me, because I used to feel similar when I went to the grocery store and would see people outside of the usual setting (ie. former teachers outside the classroom), and I've always had a fear of intimacy which could be the problem with not wanting to get physical with him. In previous relationships I've always felt that intimacy was a chore and usually grew to resent either the partner or the intimacy. I've always been told that intimacy should "wait until you're older," but now that I'm "older" I think I still feel that way, that I'm still not old enough. I don't know what to do.