- As a kid, I hoped that I would grow up to be a tall man. I'm 24 yrs old and haven't grown an inch since age 13. I'm 5'5''.
- I have always eaten only 3 average sized meals a day but still, I'm overweight.
- I started losing hair when I was 17. And now every other 40 yr old male I see has more hair than I do.
- I just recently found out that I might have peyronie's disease. It is a disease that causes one's penis to bend. It also reduces the penis length and girth. I used to have an average size penis. But now I have a 4 incher. I don't even want to measure the girth.

And thats just the physical stuff!

- I have depression, anxiety, adult ADHD and OCD.
- ADHD has practically ruined my life. I've struggled through school and have been struggling through college.
- I was only diagnosed last year. The late diagnosis has made things even worse. I've lost 4 years of my life. I dropped out of college after 2 years and am going to go back this year.

And thats my life. Not only am I a virgin, not only have I never kissed a girl, I've never ever held a girl's hand.
I've never had any friends and I don't have any siblings.
Growing up, I was the kid who got bullied the most, who got made fun of the most and who got screamed at the most for not doing well in exams. My life revolved around hiding from the bullies and finding new ways of keeping my test results from my father.
I never had anyone to talk to. No friends, no siblings. Nobody noticed anything when they used to pick on me. But there were always enough people to tell me that I wasn't trying hard enough to be happy. So can someone pls explain to me how I'm supposed to be happy?
Is there a happy switched I'm supposed to turn on?
What have I got to live for? My state of mind alternates between anger and depression. I feel so angry that it starts to affect me physically.
I cannot even remember the last time I felt true happiness. I don't know how much more of this I can take.

Isn't the only thing left for me to do is to wait for death to come? What I am supposed to be happy about? That I don't have cancer? That I wasn't born in Darfur?