Hi jenkins09,
Well... it's pretty much off the table now. I told her that I just don't foresee having kids in my life and she has decided that... she wants to stay in the relationship anyway. It is not easy. I told her that I just wanted her to be happy and that I really didn't want her to feel resentful. She said that if she was ever beginning to feel that way she would tell me.
I don't know what else to do. Of course I just want to see our relationship work out because its terrific in all other ways.
Anyway, as you asked - I definitely always begin to feel like things are my fault. I am currently trying to piece my life back together after serious depression. I am beginning to feel somewhat "whole" again. But part of it is that I want to be there for her. I always tend to feel like things depend on me. I was an only child and did a lot of taking care of my mom who was depressed and an alcoholic (although high-functioning). I often feel like more is on my shoulders than needs to be... if that makes sense.

E