I won't say any of those things, because I soooo have felt that way towards such statements at such a moment. Meds don't necessarily eliminate the swings, but make them less often than they would be, you know? (and by extension that there is more time that you *won't* feel the way you do now. The logical side of your brain *will* win. The BP side's just being a bully to it right now.) And I know you know that and hope that doesn't make you angry, though I understand if it does... how the logical side takes a good stompin' down from the BP controlled thoughts, and how damn convincing they can seem while it's happening. Been there. But know also that those of us who have been there are here for you and pulling for you and care about you, Trippin. Very much.