I haven't slept in 3 days. I keep talking to all of my friends who are happily at home with their parents in my hometown. It is killing me.

I don't know anyone here, as I have said. I am not at all quiet. It's just the nature of the area - everything is so spread out it is virtually impossible to meet anyone.

No one in the group of houses where I live comes out much. We have a Shop Rite, a few pizza places, and 2 tiny strip malls. The main street, which is the only place I feel comfortable since I am used to the suburbs, is a block long.

All of the roads are labeled "country road xxx"...mostly local people who are from here hang out at the small restaurants I have found. I met a girl yesterday who was probably in high school who treated me like crap, and believe me, usually I could care less...

I am used to the city and very crowded suburban areas. No one where I grew up would ever be that rude to me. In any given day I could walk out the door and run into 20 or 30 people I know, without even trying. In New York City I met people constantly.

I was actually excited when my family sold the house originally, but I did not know this was what I would get.

I don't want to sound childish, please don't think that...I really don't know what to do...I was on my way out the door until I got sick from the whole trauama thing.

I am afraid to be alone now.