Hi guys. Thanks for your contributions. Time is still maddening, but I've managed to make it to 11:30 with a morning project. Last night I had really bad ideation and was up until about 2am. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm taking my meds, I'm trying to keep a positive attitude, but I feel like something inside is clawing about trying to get out and destroy my life. I don't want to wind up in the hospital but life and time is crushing me down. All I can do is try to preoccupy my mind to keep from what seems like the inevitable.