I to once lost sum1, she was a girl in my school and she took her life by ODing on insulin the thing is she had a crush on me and even asked me out, and all I did was laugh at her and make her feel real bad and every time I saw her I would run away or make fun of her and in the end she died and I felt really bad cause in the end all she was looking for was sum affection and I never gave it to her all I did was be mean, it is hard to lose sum1 you actuall know even worse if knew them personaly, I felt bad but in the end I got over it, in time so will you.