Religion plays a large part in my manic episodes, which is odd because when I'm feeling well I'm not religious at all.

During my first manic episode, I was delusional and thought that Jesus Christ was my best friend...I felt better than everyone else and decided to kill myself to join Jesus in heaven. There was also the satanic aspect as well...I was paranoid and looked out for people with red eyes or moving black shadows around them, as those were signs that they were "evil". I attempted suicide, failed, and ended up in hospital.

During my second episode, it was pretty much the same except instead of Jesus it was a "Divine Power" who gave me odd quests to do, such as walking outside with no shoes on to be like Jesus, who could walk on water. Another big difference is, I wasn't suicidal this time. The Divine Power wanted me to stay on Earth.