I'm very sorry to hear of your struggle and am hoping that your lithium will work soon. I thought your change of plans from crime to picking flowers was brilliant. I think this was an excellent coping technique and an obvious wise decision. I'm kind of going through a bit of rapid cycling myself but I'm going to remember your decision to strive to find a better alternative to the bad alternatives that are popping in my mind and go with the good. I wish you well.