Oh wow......can I relate to this! I'm maybe a spiritual person, but not "religious". And here I am thinking I was the second coming of Christ.....probably to be killed on the cross......and then decided I was was sent to deliver the message to everybody who would listen. Then, finally, still firmly entrenched in my psychosis, I figured I was safely one of millions of "born again" Christians. I also thought God was keeping all the lights green for me at intersections, and that he was parting the clouds for me to see the light......and just for the record, I too attempted suicide and ended up for a long time in the hospital with serious injuries. This chills me to think about it, but it's comforting to know I'm not the only one......