I'm right there with you all, only even more desparate. I lost my job when the mania set in big time. Hitting the tree got my license suspended, although I'm certain I won't drive or work again......too disabled with this Bipolar 1. I stay in bed until at least 10:30......then let my dog Magruder out, plus give him his morning snack. ( For the record, my husband takes him out at 4 am, when he leaves for work.) Then I usually munch something, talk to my sister or a friend on the phone, "read" the paper and then get onto PC. That occupies me until my husband gets back home around 3:30-4:00. I can't believe that I manage to pass time this way......I don't know what I would be doing without the computer to help keep me busy......I'm just not able to do much of anything else. Thinker22, I'm also trying to stay out of the hospital. My depression is starting to crush me again......