AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I have had the longest "good time" or days, that I have had in a while since I started Lexapro, but today I was majorly triggered and I am currently buzzed and angry listening to rock music in my brother's room-- since, yes, I am still unemployed. Here is what I feel like doing: Driving to Canada and getting a job as an anonymous waitress, going out and getting laid by a stranger, dancing and dancing and dancing, running a car into a tree, taking a lot of pills, screaming until my voice gives out..........aaaaaaaaagggggghhhh!!! I tried calling my psychiatrist but it is a sunday. I need someone and have no one....I hate my dad for hating me.........help please