I hope I have turned the corner. I have financial stress right now but have some options to look into. Plus I have had the neighbor issue that I have made some boundaries that WILL NOT BE CROSSED. I have my pdoc appointment this. I want to go to group therapy and my pdoc will encourage it- he has offered when I get manic or depressed. I also have a friend staying until I stabilize or go to hospital. I am also going to start meditating as well. You know, without you all and my walks, I honestly think I would be planning to check into the VA hospital tomorrow. That option would be available.