Thank you both for your advice. Yoda, you say it's been 10 years since your boyfriend passed, have you had relationships since? How has it been for you? I completely understand people thinking it's "too soon" that is why I am being so patient. I believe he does care for me, but it is a bit scary. I am able to be in a relationship, and I wonder if he truly is. I know it is only 6 mos since her passing, I truly care for him too. I only hope I am not the "transition" person or someone in his life just so he isn't alone. That would hurt and not be fair to me. I hope we can find common ground where I can remain patient and allow him to go through what he needs to go through and we are able to move forward as a couple rather than me being the one here at the moment. There is one more piece, I had to go for a breast biopsy last week, I should have the results in a couple of days, but it is hard. He is being as supportive as he can be, but I also don't lean on him as I would like too. I am trying to be respectful of his recent loss, but it is difficult for me when I would like my boyfriend to be there or I need to tell him my fears or just break down and cry and I can't at this point.