As most of you know my family is very apathetic towards my needs, and once again I find myself with no significant other to divide me from them, so I am stuck, unable to make enough money to support myself, and since they are millionaires, and have been helping me thus far ( well ever since I attempted a profession like my father's profession they have been helping..?) and now are renigging on any help, my T wants to meet with them...all kinds of conflicts came up with the schedule of the appointment, my mother did not understand why 'I' had a problem with 'her' ( she abused me financially and verbally real bad) I set that jerk straight, for the first time the words came, assertive words, for the first time..I have never been able to state my case or defend myself, have always let myself be walked over, but not this time..my mother finally admitted she had been neglecting me, even offered to spend the rest of the summer in therapy with me! Also offered to help out financially..(I work in an afterschool program which ended when school ended) (My parents will not let me live with them, so I have many expenses..) Whew spent the night at psychiatric emergency when my brother, mother, and father all separately yelled at me or ignored me..people have been saying no one could relate to a lifetime of this much pain...where is my husband about now? That boyfriend I had been writing about would interrupt cuddling with me to take his ex's calls in another room...**sigh** Perhaps we could still be friends, but I need a bit of time here...

So lots of drama, lots of tears, lots of pain, I dream about the kind of families that most are **sigh**