Yes we survived. and yes we may have lost ourselves, too.

i reside in a state of constant dissociation, always withdrawn. i am not who i was when i was being raped and abused. today i am stronger. who am i? i don't know that answer YET. as an adult, i choose not to be a victim anymore.

those scars and memories we carry around with us can loosen their grips on us if we allow ourselves to feel the emotions we deny ourselves. what do you think? are you like me and fear feeling the intense, painful emotions hidden deep within?

<font color=purple> Man can will nothing unless he has first understood that he must count no one but himself; that he is alone, abandoned on earth in the midst of his infinite responsibilities, without help, with no other aim than the one he sets himself, with no other destiny than the one he forges for himself on this earth. Jean-Paul Sartre </font color=purple>