Ya know what, I tried the whole I am not going to talk to you until you are single speal and did a horrible job at it. I am definatly very confused abou this. I go back and forth about what I even want. I mean getting involved I never anticipated getting pregnant, after all we were safe (apparently not safe enough) and now, now I go back and forth. I suppose the mood swings help. I have told him how I felt. How it would be so much easier to explain a newborn than a seventeen year old. I have done the guilt that I see myself driving myself to the hospital while in labor and being all alone having a csection. The speal about denying the kid her/his birthright of relatives. Bringing yet another child into this world without a father. and the only closer we got was finially after what, four months he called a lawyer and got advice. The advice, the common sense, TALK TO THE WIFE and tell her its not working. Duh? But this too is a hard thing to do. I understand this, I really do but I certainly know that anytime I have ever been in a relationship that I felt no love in I have prepared myself to leave and have left. Married or not. I was married once, granted not for twelve years but still.........I suppose there is hope......and yet honestly...........I am not sure this is what I want.........but the friendship I cherish.........I am in a situation that I see no solution because I do not have the slightlest inkling of a clue as to what I want............which would help in a lot of things.........I wanna scream...........Thanks for listening..........I really hate affairs.....they are not meant for me.....