I agree with Melbadaze. I can hear how much you are hurting and how much you need her to respond in an overtly caring way to explictly show you that she cares rather than it having to be something that is mentioned in passing and 'known'. And i don't think it is bad asking your therapist again and again if she cares, that's probably one of the reasons you are in therapy because perhaps you can't quite believe why anyone would care!
But I guess also the ball is in your court now. How do you want to proceed? You can go over it in your head if you need to but ultimately you are in control of how you respond to your t's response. You could go back to the session and raise the issue again and again until you feel it is on its way to being resolved, or you could go back to session and ignore it and let it sit like a big elephant in the room, or you could go back to sessions and try and forgive and forget her response, or you could tell her that you are too hurt from trying so hard and don't want the pain any longer and quit. Those are some of the possibilities.....
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Originally Posted by peaches100
All my life, I've just ever wanted someone to love that hurting, vulnerable part of me. . .or at least to know i mean something more to someone than just a dust ball in the corner. . .to think that child part of me could be significant or important in somebody's eyes and not just a big annoyance or burden.
but now i feel that under the surface, with my t, it's just all the same as it's ever been for me since i was a child with my parents. I'm "too much," my emotions are "too much," my needs are "too much." And the worst part of it is i know it's true.
I don't want to get my hopes up anymore that the child part of me will ever mean anything to anyone. All i do is blow up a big balloon of hope, only for it to pop later, and show me that in reality i am invisible and mean nothing.
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I hear how you feel about this. I don't think this issue is something that can be resolved with a few choice lines in an email - even if she'd managed to pick the right ones! I think it will be based on a long term deeper realisation. But on a positive note at least you keep blowing up that big balloon of hope - it takes a pretty strong person to have faith and hope especially when they've had a lot of situations where they have been very badly let down.