I know how bad you feel about thinking that you are a bad mom. I feel the same way. My sister also tells me that all the time too. Also that I'm a bad wife, andpretty much a bad person. It hits hard everytime you think that way. It will pass though. I'm just telling myself that I am a good mother and a good wife and that I'm worth it to have everything I have. I also think that my kids and husband would be better off if I wasn't around. I have to convince myself that my kids love me and that it would crush them if something happened to me. Just hang in there! It will get better!