I feel like a fraud all the time. My family knows that I have bipolar but, they don't seem to understand how much of an impact it has on my life (if they believe it's an illness at all). I think I'm gonna start the process of trying to get disability but, I'm afraid to even try to talk to my husband about it. He has been on me to try to get a job and I just can't bring myself to tell him that I really don't think I could handle a job without having a major breakdown.