((((((((Junerain))))))))

It seems that you are at breaking point and need someone to say "Hey there, I got your back". So I'm saying it "I got your back".

I've lived the same thing with what was supposed to be my family. But my family ended when my grandmother and dad died. Once they were gone there was no control over how or when my brother and mother abused me; I felt totally alone and as if I were fighting an unrelenting enemy on my own so I really understand how you're feeling and why.

It's very frustrating and painful for us when those who are supposed to love us just because we are family, are so caught up in tearing us down that they have no time to love us and worse still attack us and use our mental illness as a weapon against us.

You do have strength Junerain it's there right inside of you and if you can just take one huge deep breath you might feel some of it returning. It may not be enough to get you right through this alone, but you do have us here supporting you and caring about what is said and done to you.

Please take care, and please feel at least some support, from people who "get you",

Loving thoughts,

Rhia