grrr...

I did something stupid again. Someone made a joke. I took it seriously and flipped for about an hour and pissed off everyone in the house cause my warning bells were screaming

"ABANDONMENT ABANDONMENT WARNING MORE LOSS COMING"

I just CANT take anymore loss in my life. I cant! I cant do it. I will crumple. Ive lost everything,

E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G!

Son, home, money, job(little writing jobs). Friends, family, life, stability and sanity.

I am just feeling so sad. I guess I am sorry for myself. I dont know. If there is a scale the negative side is laying on the ground by now.

Im scared i destroyed a friendship tonight.

Going to lay in bed and feel sorry for myself. I guess. I need hugs.