Majan xx

Hugs to you.
I think you had to have the 'out burst' and by going to the party you got it all out of you finally.. But like yourself I know what it's like to act out of character - when I think of the things I have said and done with the Mark situation I have huge remorse.. followed by fits of giggles at some of the things I did LOL.. but I remind myself that I was too nice for much too long.. as were you.
You are allowed to act any way you want.. the key is not to dwell on it after you have.
No disappointment in you... just proud that you can express it all here and get it out of your head..
Block Aaron from Fb so that you actually can't see his page (well unless you unblock him) then you wont know what he is up to and you can't get saddened/angry/hurt by anything he does.

Take care xxoo