I just woke up from a "nap". Couldn't stay asleep. I only slept an hour and woke to an empty bed. I forgot how horrible that feels. Once again my bf fell asleep on the couch, which really bothers me to the point where I want to cut. A bit extreme, I know, but that's what I am triggered to do. Probably because I think he doesn't want to sleep with me. Yes, I know he falls asleep on the couch because he's tired, but I can't help but think there's something wrong with me that he can't come to bed when he's tired enough to fall asleep.

I really don't get it. When I'm tired I go to be, why can't he? I really don't understand it.