Just feeling...overwhelmed. I've spent over 2 months in this hospital and basically all I've learned is that I have Bipolar 1 Disorder, and that I can't have SSRI anti-depressants because they make me manic.

I'm just starting on Cymbalta, which is an SSNRI (I think) and I'm feeling frustrated. There are many different families of anti-depressants, with many anti-depressants in each family. PLUS, ECT is an option. So it could take years before I find what's right for me!

I've never felt balanced. Right now I'm frustrated, overwhelmed, depressed and anxious at once. The littlest things get to me and I know if I left the hospital I'd just be back soon enough. I don't feel the desire to live sometimes, and when I do I can't do the simplest things without getting overwhelmed, like mailing in applications or making a call.

I confided in my pdoc today that I felt like the nurses were getting sick of seeing me, since I've been here for so long...but he said that wasn't true, they know I'm sick and need to get better, and he said they weren't going to give up on me. This was good to hear. I'm just getting impatient, I suppose.

How did you guys deal with waiting to find the right treatment for you?