It is really frusturating trying to find the right meds to make you feel "normal". It is worth it in the end when the meds finally make you feel better. You just have to keep your head up and keep going. I agree that you need to find something to do to keep your mind occupied. Try not to dwell on everything so much. I know that it's really hard to do that sometimes but, just try to stay positive. The nurses are not tired of you either. That is what they are there for. I have met some really nice nurses during my stays in the hospital. You are a great person. Just keep your head up. My thoughts are with you and if you need to talk I'm here. I get on here quite a few times during the day so I'll watch for your postings or you can pm me also. Sending lots of hugs and love your way!