I guess I need to share how I feel now. Physically it feels like someone hit me in my solar plexis. I felt waves of anger coming off of him. Everything he said to me seemed backwards from reality. Everything that is bad is someone elses fault. When I told him to leave I got the impression he has been asked to leave...in his marriage as well as jobs and friendships. It was trying to doubt my own perceptions about myself. As strong as I am, that pain in my solar plexis lets me know he tried really hard at every step. In the end however, he blew a good opportunity and made life more difficult for himself once again. May take a few days to get back to my spunky self. There is self doubt there, shock that he is so out of touch reality. I have written in my journal and that helps. Certainly not manic anymore. But I am glad he is gone. Thank you all for reading.