My dear special one,

Yes maybe it is why you are so overwhelmed. You have been pushed over your limit. You are tired, exausted.

What you need to do my dear special friend is to give a break to your heart and soul. You are hurting way too much right now and you can't feel any positive, any love, any guidance, any caring.

I will not go on the subjet of why you are hurting because I know that one much too well too and it is very hard to shut down the cry of pain in your inner self.

What your heart and soul need right now is caring, kindness, love. Go get it even if you need to block the cry in you for now. Take a break. I don't know if you are close to someone in your real life or not but please remember that sometime being close doesn't mean you have to say everything that is in your heart but only to feel the warm of a smile, the warm of a HI, the warm of eye contact, the warm of people online.

I think you should give yourself a break and block the pain for a while. Let yourself breath.

I care for you very much and I'm sending you all my kindness.

Many hugs dear one!
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