(((donna))) I want to hug you for what you are going through. I have bipolar as well and have a very hard time working. So I applied for disability to help with the loss of income. Since your husband had a good job then he should bring in enough in disability to help pay the bills. I also work part time now that I can to help with the income but I know that is only while I am feeling "ok". Once the depression or mania hits, its best for me not to work. I agree with what everyone here has said and hope you can find some peace with your husbands illness.