I haven't posted in a while, but this has been bugging me and I need to air out my feelings here.

I just broke up with my boyfriend of 4 months about 3 weeks ago. This has been my longest relationship ever, and only the third boyfriend I've ever had.

My issue with this I guess is the following: how healthy can it be for a 26 year old woman to only have had 3 relationships her whole life? Not to mention that the longest has only been 4 months? I mean, I realize I'm a late bloomer to the dating scene because I was always shy and had low selfesteem about my body. But since I've been on meds and lost weight I feel better about myself. Which is when I started dating. I've had two boyfriends in the last year.

I guess I'm just worrying too much that I will never find someone special. I mean, I'm almost 30 for pete's sake!! I always thought I would be married by then. My younger sister who's 24 just got engaged. My mom was 26 when she got married. But it seems like i'm stuck in high school.

Both of my past relationships ended because my boyfriends wanted to sleep with me and I wasn't ready. I was raised Catholic and work for the Catholic Church. So my moral code says to wait until marriage. People at work and my family have all been supportive of this decision and very proud of me for waiting. But I feel like i'm the only one left in the world who hasn't done the deed! I feel like a freak at 26. Both my exes said I would never find a man who would wait for sex. I wonder now if that's true?
Sorry, but I feel a little sad and lonely today. I miss the companionship i had with my boyfriend. Plus i just turned 26. I guess i'm going through my quarter life crisis?!?