Now that all the warm and fuzzy, you are going to just fine stuff has been said, let me tell you what’s going to happen. if you, and I quote “maybe I'll have a beer every now and then”. You will use again if you do that. As sure as that brown stuff smells, if you drink, you’ll use.

If you want to get clean, get clean, period!

I was sitting in the detox that I take a meeting into every week and this guy was telling me that liquor wasn’t his problem, it was crack. I asked him if he ever smoked crack out of an empty beer can. He said sure, all the time. And then I asked him what he did with the beer in the can, did he pour it out or did he drink it.

You are scared s###less about never coping a buzz again. Maybe just a few brews to take the edge off. If you don’t find a solution that removes that obsession to get buzzed, you will be right back where you don’t want to be faster than you imagine.

I have seen your story play out too many times for me to tell you that the path you have laid out for yourself will lead you to what you want to go. It won’t.

Get 100% clean or go back out.

Richard