Ways to deal with the death might be thinking of the good memories. Some deal with it by talking to the burned to ashes of the person they know who died, and by talking about the death, making something which is filled of good memories. Like some sort of album with the pictures of experiences with captions of the event taking place. I realized my mother found it relieving to visit the graves of the people she knew who died. For me holding onto the hope that maybe someday I'll get to see Laura again even though she's dead by now helped me feel better. I guess it all depends on your beliefs though to be able to think that, no matter what though remind yourself it may be a possibility. I hope things get better for you.