thank you all for your advice! i decided to just distance myself from him so that i am not torturing myself to beg for his love and the hopes that he will change. i think now it has turned into more than just the addiction, we are now not even speaking to each other, i don't know when it happened, but it is to the point of no return, i think!! today i told him that if he wishes to continue to be this way towards me then i would appreciate for him to not be around me, it hurts to bad to be in the same home with the man you once thought of as your knight in shining armor, but now is only the cause of my heart breaking more and more everyday. I wish this could be easy, my love for him is so strong, i would stick by his side and fight any battle that comes our way!! But to come home everyday not knowing if he will speak to me or even look at me is to much to bare. when i look at the comp each day theres is nothing but sports and porn, but yet he can't even tell me he loves me, look at my face, or give the smallest hint that i mean anything to him, i guess this truly is the end for us....