rainy... maybe you need a reminder thingy... like one of those braceletts or a ring or something else small and inconspicuous. i'm thinking like make a little bracelette with beads to represent different things that you need to be able to bring to mind in hard moments.

like.. idk.. a little heart bead can remind you that friends do love you and remind you to go with that assumption when there is conflict instead of flying off the deep end by assuming they've turned on you

write down these things.. i mean, you do know them, you just can't access them when you need to... so, like anything unfamiliar or different, you need a way to remind yourself so you can remember. Kind of like cheat sheets

with a braceletts you can add beads for whatever you need... like one to remind you to keep your hopes up and remember that nothing stays the same and bad times can't last forever without us adding fuel to them.

BPD's often create a degree of the chaos that fuels bigger problems, not on purpose (generally) but it happens because they can't overrule their "automatic" reactions easily. So, get yourself some beads and make yourself a little cheat sheet.

cheers girlfriend... keep working at it, you'll get there