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Originally Posted by zooropa
I do the same thing, peaches. EXACTLY. In the moment when my T shows me she cares, I believe it. But soon it starts to not feel real. Sure, she meant it then, but does she mean it NOW? And if something bad happens, well, that just "proves" it, she might have cared at one time, but she doesn't any more.
I think it's something about object permanence, but I don't really know. I wish I could fix that about myself, because it keeps me in a constant state of insecurity.
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I do the same thing too. In your example above, I don't even think "she might have cared at one time", If I allow myself, I will take it to the extreme....".Well, that just proves it. She never really care about me, this was just her job. Who was I kidding? What would she like about me? I am not worthy for her as my therapist I am bad, I am unlovable, yada, yada, yada...." Ugh!!!
Pretty sad and pathetic, actually....I hate that about myself.