everything that's is bad that could happen is going to happen.
everyone is going to die.
i am going to get in a car crash.
someone is going to shoot me as i drive past them.
someone is going to rape me today.
someone is going to hold up the store as i try to pay for my things/when i am working the cash register.

...i will drop this glass and shatter it, i will step on the pieces of glass and slash my foot and bleed all over the floor.

my dog will step on the glass and i can hear her cries now, in my head.

my mother will fall down the stairs and break her neck.
my father won't wake up tomorrow morning.

my boyfriend won't wake up to answer the door next time i go see him.
he'll have died of SUDEP.

maybe i'll drown while drinking my coffee.
maybe i'll choke on something and not be able to do the heimlich on myself this time.

...I think about Bad Things Happening every day, all day.
And no one understands.