thanks guys....

I just glow myself to the TV....and I'm not a TV person really....yesterday, I went home and cleaned up a bit, cooked...but I was dragging myself and forcing myself to do that....then I watched TV the whole night....

My mom called me, I didn't really want to talk to her....kinda pissed even that she didn't stay with me when I need her the most....that's always the case...whenever I really need her, she's not there!!! I think she found the sadness in my voice and I told her I really don't feel talking....then after I hung up the phone....my younger sister called....I didn't want to talk to her either, I didn't answer the phone....then they kept calling....I didn't want to make them nerves....so, I answered....mom said she will come to my place tomorrow which is today....not sure if she doesn't change her mind again....

It's silly to have expectations from them....It's just sucks to be alone....I hope soon, I settle down and I get on the online dating and hopefully to find somebody....