I was diagnosed with BPD when I was 18. I am now 22. I used to take 1200mg of lithium per day with 500mg of Depakote ER plus 50mg of Trazodone to sleep. I stopped taking all my medication when I was 18 without my doctor's consent. I know, bad idea. I basically dropped all my meds one day and went crazy for about a month.
Since then, I have been functioning decently without medication or therapy (or so I've been telling myself).
Recently, I have been feeling more rapid cycles occuring. I've been using the mood tracker on here and its showing me how up and down I'm becoming.
I am definitely considering going back into therapy and possibly going back on medication, but I've had such negative experience with medication in the past so I am afraid to try it again.
Plus, I also have problems with therapists. I only had one that I ever liked. I feel like I am way to picky with therapists and that most of them dont get me.

Not sure where I'm going with this right now. Just kind of venting/ranting for myself LOL.