It took me a long time toreply to this post...it hit too cloe to home...no...we dont "survive" we "exist"
I was abused at the same age, by my "brother" but also before that at age 4 by our gardner.
First hubby was physically and emotionally abusive...second mentally(see a familair trend)
I get introspective about it at times...though I cant say it helps;....but I do understand what youre saying and how you feel. It isnt something yo u"get over" no matter how much time passes..it effects your entire life.
I can count my blessing and say I had the most wonderful Daddy in the world...although knwo he suffers from PSP and wil lnever be the same man I remmeber sadly.
My :"mother"never was one or ever will be. so I hear ya there too.
Amazing what scars we take with us and they neverrealize what theyve done to us huh. There so many things i can trace back to thos eincidents in my life. In hindsight of course and after the mistakes and choices were made
So I, fo rone,. andprobnably one of the few so ay no...we dont survive...we exist...barely.