I really understand what you are going through. I was receiving help through a community support team for over 2 years, they got a new QP and she insisted that they couldn't help me anymore and to find a new mental health provider. If the people who are suppose to know that we always think that we are left behind and abandoned are giving up on us then why are they suprised when we want to give up on ourselves? I am sooo mad at this women and would like to rip her face off, but at the same time they didn't seem to make any improvements in my thinking either, so what was the point? Maybe I am unhelpable. My point is we are the way we are....And I use the word WE. You are not alone