I am so keyed up, probably manic really, and i hate being so irratible, plus am having marital issues....so im a total wreck, i feel bad that my daughter has to see and deal with this, i feel like she deserves way better,im a fking nutcase now, feeling worthless and unpredictible... damn this is hard to try to describe.. feel like taking our **** and packing up and leaving his sorry ***, but logically i know i have no income so what would i do???This is so unexpected right now, didnt see it coming...feel alone, misunderstood, and stepped on by the people who i thought would always care, but hell what do i know??


sorry for ranting, i could use any suggestions to help me come down off this....