my story starts about 5 months ago, i left my wife and 4 kids .and started a ralationship with a woman that i thought i was going to be with for years! (stupid me) i was happy for the first few weeks then she started to act off with me, i just put it down to me being allways around.
then out of the blue she told me to get lost!! i was hurt and confused,
i went to the only person that was always there for me, my ex wife ( i know i was the one who left her ) she helped me so much for a week we were talking and spending time together but i was weak and when this other woman asked me back i ran back to her, not thinking what my ex wife was feeling.

my ex wife didnt take it to well she tried to take her own life ...
and even then i didnt think what she must of been going through .
untill a couple weeks later when the other woman that i was seeing once again told me to get lost ( this time by text ) i lost ot big time, that is when i tried to end it all with pain killers. i was (according to the doc) 515 minutes away from total system shut down.
when i came around in the hospital my brother and my ex wife were there at my bed side .
i was confused why she would be there for me again when i had been so uncaring towords her.
but now she is here trying to help me with my depression and she wants us to get back together , but i cant get back together with her as i cant forgive myself for leaving her in the first place.