I do not know what I am going to do if my father does not get this job.

There are no distractions here I am going NUTS. I have never felt this lost.

Seriously, and usually I am not like this, believe me...

I know I have said this before but I don't want to stay like this and I feel as if I am trapped here. I don't have a niche.

I have never gotten to a point that eating, sleeping, and daily living became a problem...

Too much has added up, I just want a normal life in a community with a lot of people. I am extroverted.

I am freaking out.

My dad's resume is on the desk of this stupid person who could change our lives with one phone call. I have watched my family get more miserable over 3 years and it is horrid.

Everyone thinks we deserve a break....friends, everyone, watching everything fall apart. It is sad and I want it to stop.