Thank you.

I don't know how to talk about it. How to explain what it feels like when I need to do it. I done really good. It had been four years since I last did it. But then twice in the last two months. I told her that I didn't know if I could not do it this weekend. And I still don't know. I don't know why this is happening. Why it is coming back. It makes me feel like such a failure.