Today I was at a gas station with a friend, just chilling and enjoying the night, when suddenly we walked around and this drunk guy in the parking lot was yelling at the people in the car next to him. Then, I guess he saw us and decided we were better targets. This guy was covered in cheap tattoos, looked like a bodybuiler, and was easily over 21. I'm 16, and so is my friend. My friend's short and scrawny. Anyway, starts yelling at us about how he would rape us in prison and stuff, and we both try to ignore it. My friend gets pretty upset about it after we walk away, talking about how we should have done something. And I agreed, but knew inside that I probably never would've fought the guy. The guy had a car full of attractive women, and they were all laughing at us. At me.
I don't get why people like this exist, or why they get off on picking on children when they're grown men. I didn't even make fun of little kids with my friends when I was in middle school, even though I know it would've been easy. But even more than that, I don't know why I don't stand up for myself. I mean, by walking away I'd like to say I was being the bigger man or showing that he wasn't worth my time, but that's not it at all. Honestly, I want to beat the **** out of these people, and even think about killing them. But I'm not even afraid of the pain or anything, I guess it's more the possibility of humiliation or embarassment from me losing, and all the things he could do to me outside of physical pain.
What do I do?
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Depression - Moderate Anxiety - High Phobias - Low Self-Esteem - Severe Shizophrenia - Low Alchohol/Drug Issues - Moderate Obsessions and Compulsions - Moderate
"The higher we soar, the smaller we appear to those who cannot fly." - Friedrich Nietzsche
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