Hi, Bakery.

I'm Billi.

I wish I had seen your post much earlier.

I havent' been on this forum in a while.

I want to say I really identify with that need and want "to matter"! I ask my roommate how I am to him and what I am to him and he has no clear cut answers, except, "You agree with me politically". Okay, fine. But more than anything in the world, I would like someone to say, "Billi, you make the sun rise and the moon shine".

Everyone needs to matter and we shouldnt' have to threaten or commit suicide to get that attention.

Also, another of my reasons for my suicidal tendencies is wanting to simply end the awful pain of having BPD.

ty for sharing,

Billi