I hear about ppl here having therapists that will treat them.

where are they?!

Can't find them anywhere.

See my other post for more info.

anyway, I just got back from a psychiatrist, who won't treat me because she believes "I can get better help at this other program", which is not covered by my insurance. She says it is, but I checked and my insurance does NOT cover BPD. It's an "Axis 2" thing. My insurance will only cover "Axis 1" things, like schizophrenia or bipolar. I have an Axis 1 thing and that's only what they will cover/treat.

I went to a psychiatrist just for the treatment of the axis 1 thing and she won't treat me cause I have borderline.

I am so scared now.

I can't get any psych help now, unless I find a psych. who can still sneak treatment for the axis 1 problem.

I understand that some of you are not American and have universal health care. I am from California (which is supposed to have great mental health care) and all I can afford is basic psych (med) care and I can't even get that now cause of this darn bpd label!

So scared I can't stand it.

I tried another therapist the other night---2 in fact and they both dropped me cause I was so needy.

I wanted to die all weekend, but didnt' act on it. Too scared to actually put the pills in my mouth.

So I am safe and still here.


Billi