I was out walking today again...and that feeling of being vulnerable came upon me again. Who is the keeper of this person and what value is there within?
Some people were walking with others and I looked and thought they must be valued because they have him, her, husband, wife, girlfriend, boyfriend, child, adult, even some with a dog but me/us we walked alone. Now don't get me wrong sometimes we walk with our good, current family and would not change it for anything but how is it that this feeling of being so alone in the whole wide world can come upon me and I look around and try to gauge the value of self?
Is it a waste of time, comparing a so called 'happy' past (more likely an ignorant past) or thinking they have something I want with what really is what I consider myself to be or have. Maybe i was just afraid again. Afraid of someone getting me and it was a test to see if I had grown and learned how I could stand strong.
This thread to me has spurned much thought.
Thank you, Anderson.