youre not a freak - i used to get changed into my nighty under my clothes so the only place i was naked was in the shower- and i would leave the room if someon kissed or made love on tv
but this is obviously having a huge impact on your life - are you getting therapy? do you know why you react this way? - i know my reasons (CSA) and i got therapy which has helped me.. and im a lot better now - not good enought ot have a relationship bu def better than i was.
I hope you seek help to make your life more happy
sending gentle hugs if ok
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet