People skills are very important. That and school are the answer for your questions anything else is just a dream....You do not like people you state and do not want to go to school...Having made some bad choices with a married man well unless you are going to DO something different than what you have done so far ....then it is a done deal you will be right where you are. Sadly you have another child on the way...Take the advice given to you and find a way to go to school...Also maybe once you like yourself you will like other people..Good luck